As I sit here on my brown couch, typing this post, it is late Sunday night.
It is always late at night, it seems, when I am posting (. . .thus all the typos. At a certain point, all the letters just kinda blur together. But sometimes, I just gotta write!).
It's been a busy weekend.
Heck. It's been a busy life.
But this weekend was a bit busier than average weekend stuff.
There was a family party for Josiah Friday night.
Our very dear friends, Pat and Theresa Forbes joined us for the celebration. We used to celebrate all our holidays and family milestones with them. They have moved far away, but they are always in our hearts, and on Friday, we had the pleasure of having them at our table!
Saturday, I did some housework . . . not as much as I needed to, but enough to keep me busy until I had to get ready for the wedding of our good friends Ugo and Amy.
I know the wedding ceremony and celebration is primarily for the bride and groom, but I had so much fun seeing old friends and talking to people I haven't seen in a while and bustin' a few moves with my home girl Kerri, it felt like we were all the stars of the evening!
On the way home in the car, Josiah told me he danced his first dance with another person . . .a friend of his from school, "you know, to a slow song," he explained as I drove him toward home, the darkening sky falling around us . Apparently, she offered him two pieces of candy to dance with her, and he refused. But she upped the ante to three pieces of candy, and he folded like a bad hand.
He seemed quite squeemish about the whole thing.
I just couldn't believe I missed the photo op.
And my little dancing man.
I stayed way latter than I planned to.
It was that much fun.
Staying late has it's consequences though.
Just ask Cinderella.
By the time I got home, I was too tired to do the things I had to do to get the house ready for Josiah's "friend party" today.
So, this morning was a rush, and this afternoon was a bit crazy too. Lots of people came for dinner and the party, and the house was packed out . . . but I love it when that happens.
The whole house fills up with the sounds of laughter and talking and family and life and . . . friendship. Dishes rattle and silverware clinks and clanks. Children laugh, run, get under your feet . . . and you smile. Friends share stories, tell jokes, remember when, laugh out loud . . . their voices becoming part of the space where you are, maybe forever. If you press your ear up to the wall another day, can you hear them again? . . . the conversations, the words, the hearts . . . ? I like to think they live on in the walls, and that is the essence of what makes your house a home. That the happy words bounce around the place. A place to gather. Friends and memories. To mingle lives. Holy work. A sanctuary.
So, I sit in silence now.
But I can still hear the voices of the afternoon. Not in the walls. But in my head. My heart.
I smile.
These moments . . .days . . . of beauty and grace, are what our lives are built on.
A wonderful life.
I face another busy week.
Busier than this last one, even.
The thought of it makes me let out a sigh into the stillness.
My heart sinks a little.
Why can't we just live in this marvelous today for a bit longer?
Why can't this late night stillness linger . . . last for days . . . stretch out and on and on . . .with no agenda but to enfold this house and my sleeping boys and me posting here?
It will not.
It can not.
There is more ahead . . . glimmers of the beauty, the grace, yet to be lived.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
To celebrate a life . . .
Eight years ago (except it was a Tuesday) on a warm, bright day, much like today, Joe and I went to the doctor's office for one of our final pre-natal visits before Josiah was to be born.
Upon checking me, the nurse announced that I was dilated to a five, and should not return home (45 minutes away) but should go directly to check in at the hospital. I didn't even have my hospital bag. I had to call my cousin to bring it.
We walked over to the hospital, and checked in.
Everything was fine, and the doctor decided to break my water to get things moving. I had been in labor for days, but it was slow going.
I took the drugs (I know, I know . . . but I don't regret it one bit. I'm a wimp like that.) and we waited for Josiah to enter this big, bold world.
Joe and I talked and laughed and held hands and watched the monitors.
Finally, at about 4:15, the nurse said, "I'm just gonna step out and get the doctor."
He came into the room. I pushed a few times. And at 4:20 p.m., out popped one of the greatest gifts of my life.
My sweet Josiah!
I got to hold him right away.
He was not a happy camper!
Oh, but I sure was.
And he has been bringing me joy and laughter, and has been growing my heart bigger than I ever thought it could grow, for all these eight years.
I am getting ready to celebrate this day with him in his classroom with his school friends.
Then, tonight, my family will gather at my house and have his favorite meal . . . pasta e fagoli with all the fixins, and a special cake baked by Grandpa.
Sunday he will have a Super Mario party with his friends. Mom is busy putting it all together. She really should go into business. She can throw a kids party like nobody's business!
I'm excited about our celebrations of life. Of Josiah's life.
He is kind and smart and funny and thoughtful, and it has been my pleasure to be his mom!
Happy Birthday, Jo! I love you so much!!
Upon checking me, the nurse announced that I was dilated to a five, and should not return home (45 minutes away) but should go directly to check in at the hospital. I didn't even have my hospital bag. I had to call my cousin to bring it.
We walked over to the hospital, and checked in.
Everything was fine, and the doctor decided to break my water to get things moving. I had been in labor for days, but it was slow going.
I took the drugs (I know, I know . . . but I don't regret it one bit. I'm a wimp like that.) and we waited for Josiah to enter this big, bold world.
Joe and I talked and laughed and held hands and watched the monitors.
Finally, at about 4:15, the nurse said, "I'm just gonna step out and get the doctor."
He came into the room. I pushed a few times. And at 4:20 p.m., out popped one of the greatest gifts of my life.
My sweet Josiah!
I got to hold him right away.
He was not a happy camper!
Oh, but I sure was.
And he has been bringing me joy and laughter, and has been growing my heart bigger than I ever thought it could grow, for all these eight years.
I am getting ready to celebrate this day with him in his classroom with his school friends.
Then, tonight, my family will gather at my house and have his favorite meal . . . pasta e fagoli with all the fixins, and a special cake baked by Grandpa.
Sunday he will have a Super Mario party with his friends. Mom is busy putting it all together. She really should go into business. She can throw a kids party like nobody's business!
I'm excited about our celebrations of life. Of Josiah's life.
He is kind and smart and funny and thoughtful, and it has been my pleasure to be his mom!
Happy Birthday, Jo! I love you so much!!
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Is Easter ever really over?
It seems I can get so busy living this beautiful, magical life, that I run out of time to write about it.
And so . . . the days get away from me.
And I find myself writing about holidays, like Easter, days after they have melted into sweet memories.
Actually, I have some pics from the tennis match last week, too. This year, the weather for tennis was gorgeous, if a bit windy. But it was warm and sunny. The kinds of days you don't mind being outside for hours.
All our kids did great! Isaac and his doubles partner, Colton, won a silver medal after playing a two hour championship game. Their competitors were very nice young men, who played hard as well and exhibited great sportsmanship. It was so much fun to watch Isaac play! He is . . . let's all say it together . . . Getting. So. Big!
We had off for Good Friday, and the boys and I went to grandpa's for the day to cook and bake some yummy traditional Italian Easter fare.
Grandpa made his famous Italian wedding cookies. Seriously. These things are dangerous to me. And I am dangerous to them. Look at these little buttons of sheer sugary happiness. I could eat them all day!
We made two sweet pies. I haven't had sweet pies since I was a kid!!
And two pizza gain (meat pies). Yeah. I haven't had this since I was a kid too. It's a good thing. Or else I'd weigh a ton. No lie.
It was fun to bake these traditional treats with Gramp. It certainly brought back a lot of good memories, and we had a few laughs.
When my grandpa was the pastor of a small church in Newark, NJ, we didn't bake these dishes because, inevitably, all the Italian women of the church would come to Easter service dressed to the nines and and carrying pies and breads -- often more than one per motivated home-baker -- which they would give to my grandpa and his family to show their respect for him and their gratitude of his care. They would fill the whole kitchen table, and the overflow would be placed on the counter-tops. We would have macaroni pie and pizza gain and sweet pie and egg bread coming out our ears! They were all just a little bit different, unique in their tastes and textures, richness and presentation, but boy howdy! They were all good. (I never did like macaroni pie, though.)
I was excited but wary when my cousin suggested that this year we try to make some of the Easter foods that live in our memories. After all, these were things that were created in the kitchens of amazing home cooks who could cook rings around these new fangled t.v. superstar chefs any day! I always pictured them working away in steamy kitchens, aprons caked with errant ingredients, noses floured, hair swept up atop their sweat-moistened brows. Surely they were in there without seeing the light of day for hours . . . days maybe, to produce the fine delicacies they so generously shared with us.
My grandpa talked to his cousin, Tri, at length about the recipes, and wrote and rewrote the instructions.
I was surprised at how easy it all was.
A little of this, a little of that, a little time to bake . . . and we had some amazing results. Tasty pies that hit the nail of memory right on the taste buds!
It was fun to share the pies with friends and family who joined us for Easter dinner.
Saturday was a busy day. The older boys got to play at a friend's house, and mom and I went shopping with Danny.
After dinner, we dyed eggs. I love Daniel at this age, because he is old enough to understand what we are doing, and young enough to be astounded by the wonder of every new thing!
Easter Sunday was a beautiful day, sun shiny and warm, a wonderful reminder that Jesus is alive and loves us!
The boys got their baskets when we all woke up. Nothing big and fancy, just little things . . . candy, of course, and other things like bubbles and first aid kits and word search or coloring books, and crayons or highlighters and baseball cards and little Marvel Comic towels all bunched up in a tiny square that will spring to their full size when soaked in water. Just fun. Stuff.
There was one for Joe and David too.
My boys looked sharp in their Easter duds.Can you say "Blue's Brothers"?
Daniel and his friend Audrey. They dig each other.
We celebrated Jesus' work of salvation on the cross, the lovely day and each other. It was a full day. Everyone liked the sweet pie and the pizza gain, and Grandpa also made lasagna and his famous Italian "gravy." Our house was full of friends and family, laughter and sharing stories and talking about life and Jesus and . . .just whatever.
And later, when I was falling into bed, tired and happy, my only regret was that I didn't get a chance to write about it.
"What's the good of writing about Easter several days after it already over?" I whined to myself when I began this post.
And then I thought . . . Is Easter ever really over?
I mean, the new life of this tender season, the new life that grows in our hearts through the work of Christ -- that new life, just as Spring comes year after year, blooming us out of our winter seasons, comes to us over and over again as we change and grow and blossom and stretch toward Heaven. It comes everyday, in big and small ways. In things seen and not seen. Easter blooms eternal because He who was crushed for us to live a life of triumph, joy, purpose and peace, rose again. Rose. Again.
For those who believe Jesus is God's son, that he loves us so much he gave his life for ours, and that he rose from the dead so we can live forever, everyday is Easter . . . a celebration of joy and hope and life.
A remembering of what He did for me. . . for everyone.
What He does for us . . . everyday.
And so . . . the days get away from me.
And I find myself writing about holidays, like Easter, days after they have melted into sweet memories.
Actually, I have some pics from the tennis match last week, too. This year, the weather for tennis was gorgeous, if a bit windy. But it was warm and sunny. The kinds of days you don't mind being outside for hours.
All our kids did great! Isaac and his doubles partner, Colton, won a silver medal after playing a two hour championship game. Their competitors were very nice young men, who played hard as well and exhibited great sportsmanship. It was so much fun to watch Isaac play! He is . . . let's all say it together . . . Getting. So. Big!
We had off for Good Friday, and the boys and I went to grandpa's for the day to cook and bake some yummy traditional Italian Easter fare.
Grandpa made his famous Italian wedding cookies. Seriously. These things are dangerous to me. And I am dangerous to them. Look at these little buttons of sheer sugary happiness. I could eat them all day!
We made two sweet pies. I haven't had sweet pies since I was a kid!!
And two pizza gain (meat pies). Yeah. I haven't had this since I was a kid too. It's a good thing. Or else I'd weigh a ton. No lie.
It was fun to bake these traditional treats with Gramp. It certainly brought back a lot of good memories, and we had a few laughs.
When my grandpa was the pastor of a small church in Newark, NJ, we didn't bake these dishes because, inevitably, all the Italian women of the church would come to Easter service dressed to the nines and and carrying pies and breads -- often more than one per motivated home-baker -- which they would give to my grandpa and his family to show their respect for him and their gratitude of his care. They would fill the whole kitchen table, and the overflow would be placed on the counter-tops. We would have macaroni pie and pizza gain and sweet pie and egg bread coming out our ears! They were all just a little bit different, unique in their tastes and textures, richness and presentation, but boy howdy! They were all good. (I never did like macaroni pie, though.)
I was excited but wary when my cousin suggested that this year we try to make some of the Easter foods that live in our memories. After all, these were things that were created in the kitchens of amazing home cooks who could cook rings around these new fangled t.v. superstar chefs any day! I always pictured them working away in steamy kitchens, aprons caked with errant ingredients, noses floured, hair swept up atop their sweat-moistened brows. Surely they were in there without seeing the light of day for hours . . . days maybe, to produce the fine delicacies they so generously shared with us.
My grandpa talked to his cousin, Tri, at length about the recipes, and wrote and rewrote the instructions.
I was surprised at how easy it all was.
A little of this, a little of that, a little time to bake . . . and we had some amazing results. Tasty pies that hit the nail of memory right on the taste buds!
It was fun to share the pies with friends and family who joined us for Easter dinner.
Saturday was a busy day. The older boys got to play at a friend's house, and mom and I went shopping with Danny.
After dinner, we dyed eggs. I love Daniel at this age, because he is old enough to understand what we are doing, and young enough to be astounded by the wonder of every new thing!
Easter Sunday was a beautiful day, sun shiny and warm, a wonderful reminder that Jesus is alive and loves us!
The boys got their baskets when we all woke up. Nothing big and fancy, just little things . . . candy, of course, and other things like bubbles and first aid kits and word search or coloring books, and crayons or highlighters and baseball cards and little Marvel Comic towels all bunched up in a tiny square that will spring to their full size when soaked in water. Just fun. Stuff.
There was one for Joe and David too.
My boys looked sharp in their Easter duds.Can you say "Blue's Brothers"?
Daniel and his friend Audrey. They dig each other.
We celebrated Jesus' work of salvation on the cross, the lovely day and each other. It was a full day. Everyone liked the sweet pie and the pizza gain, and Grandpa also made lasagna and his famous Italian "gravy." Our house was full of friends and family, laughter and sharing stories and talking about life and Jesus and . . .just whatever.
And later, when I was falling into bed, tired and happy, my only regret was that I didn't get a chance to write about it.
"What's the good of writing about Easter several days after it already over?" I whined to myself when I began this post.
And then I thought . . . Is Easter ever really over?
I mean, the new life of this tender season, the new life that grows in our hearts through the work of Christ -- that new life, just as Spring comes year after year, blooming us out of our winter seasons, comes to us over and over again as we change and grow and blossom and stretch toward Heaven. It comes everyday, in big and small ways. In things seen and not seen. Easter blooms eternal because He who was crushed for us to live a life of triumph, joy, purpose and peace, rose again. Rose. Again.
For those who believe Jesus is God's son, that he loves us so much he gave his life for ours, and that he rose from the dead so we can live forever, everyday is Easter . . . a celebration of joy and hope and life.
A remembering of what He did for me. . . for everyone.
What He does for us . . . everyday.
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